I guess I’m a creature of habit and have always been this way. I have routines and things I just do on a regular basis, pretty predictable. When the holidays arrive I also have traditions that I feel pretty strong about. Some are good traditions that have been in the family forever or ones we have created ourselves. Some are not so good? I have a problem with thinking I am wonder woman. I seem to think I need to work until I drop or I haven’t done it right. I’m not sure what made me this way but being sick this last years has forced me to make changes even If I didn’t want to. As I’ve mentioned in the past I am still suffering from fatigue. Some days are good and others not so good, I don’t get to pick which ones are good. I can go along thinking it will be a productive day and then all the sudden I hit a brick wall and the day is over. It doesn’t even matter if my to do list is a mile long, it just doesn’t get done. The neuropathy in my feet is almost gone and in my hand, well it comes and goes. I have a little bit of chemo brain that seems to linger but not bad and I have learned to deal with it. This year my family and I broke a tradition, we had our Thanksgiving Dinner catered by the Long Horn BBQ! It was fantastic! The turkey was smoked and all the trimmings were wonderful. My girls both work full time jobs and have families to care for so this made it a nice relaxing day for all of us. I almost felt guilty and then had to remind myself that it’s really Ok to relax and not have to work so hard.
Being sick has taught me a lot of things and some of them have been good lessons. I have been blessed with a wonderful family and this year I learned its Ok to do thing different and take time to enjoy them.
I hope you all had a wonderful day full of blessing and many things to be thankful for. As we go into the holiday season I will look for hidden blessing and miracles, creating many new traditions along the way.
