Today I made the decision that I would not sleep the day away, first things first, so I went for a bike ride. I have been told the more I exercise the more energy I will have. I’m not sure how that works but it does. I made it five hours before it was nap time and I felt like I could have sleep the day away again but quickly made the decision to not let it happen, so I made a plan to go to the mall. I’m a little uneasy about going out alone but thought it was time. I love going to the mall with the kids but when I want to do some serious shopping I like to go alone.
On my way I stopped at a convenient store for bottled water, not feeling very confident in my wig, I ask the clerk if she could tell I was wearing one. She assured me that she wouldn’t have known. I don’t remember how the rest of the conversation went but I remember her words when she started to cry and said she had just been diagnosed with breast cancer. She turned around to show me her long hair and said, look at my hair. I didn’t know what to say to her, I wasn’t prepared. It seemed like the words just came, I tried to reassure her that she would be ok and hair grows back but I could just remember how scary it all is at the beginning. I could only let her know that I was ok and she would be too. What I wanted to do but knew I couldn’t was to cry with her, I didn’t want to say the wrong thing to this poor woman but I couldn’t help having some pretty scary flash backs to the last few months. She had to get to work with other customers and I wished her luck and was on my way. I will stop in again to chat with her and remember her in my prayers. I lasted at the mall for almost an hour and was happy I ventured out.
On my way I stopped at a convenient store for bottled water, not feeling very confident in my wig, I ask the clerk if she could tell I was wearing one. She assured me that she wouldn’t have known. I don’t remember how the rest of the conversation went but I remember her words when she started to cry and said she had just been diagnosed with breast cancer. She turned around to show me her long hair and said, look at my hair. I didn’t know what to say to her, I wasn’t prepared. It seemed like the words just came, I tried to reassure her that she would be ok and hair grows back but I could just remember how scary it all is at the beginning. I could only let her know that I was ok and she would be too. What I wanted to do but knew I couldn’t was to cry with her, I didn’t want to say the wrong thing to this poor woman but I couldn’t help having some pretty scary flash backs to the last few months. She had to get to work with other customers and I wished her luck and was on my way. I will stop in again to chat with her and remember her in my prayers. I lasted at the mall for almost an hour and was happy I ventured out.
